Silently Screaming

I never want to be that friend that discloses all her personal problems to her closest friends without ever acknowledging that they too must fight their own battles; and sometimes, may need my shoulder to cry on too. Whether they feel that’s me or not, I felt like maybe I was becoming that friend. So today, instead of hitting the group message with an eight page “woe is me” essay, or deciding to FaceTime my other friend and breaking down today I vowed to deal with my emotions and stress alone.Worship Music. Devotion. Prayer. I went on about my regular daily activities, told myself to stop worrying and allow God to be God. Surely, he'll work things out.But deep down, I was desperately wishing someone would at least check on me.Then just randomly, I received a phone call from one of my best friends in the whole wide world.Nobody can tell me that wasn’t God!In typical Latressa fashion, I tried my best to put on my brave voice; keep my upbeat personality going, not weigh her down with what’s on my shoulders. Nice try. But in typical Auntie Ke’Amber fashion, she read me like a book. My friend hit me with the “aside from all that, how are you really doing? How are you maintaining your peace?” My mouth couldn’t even form the words to give her a solid answer. Because truthfully, I didn’t have one. And then came the river of tears. And the encouragement I needed. And I didn’t have to reach out to ask for it.And she says something along the lines of, “I think you know God will work it out, you’re just having a hard time believing he will work it out, or you’re trying to figure out how he’s going to work it out.” She was exactly right. I was having such a hard time trusting God because the magnitude of his power is so much more than meets the human eye.His love is so unfathomable and the way he places the perfect people in my corner as soon as I think I might break gets me every time. The way he’s turned my mess into a message is unfathomable. I thank God for moments like these so that I never lose sight of who he is. I thank God for moments like these because in my weakness I can still see how good he’s been to me. I’m still blessed. I thank God for times like this because I’m able to understand that a bad moment, doesn’t make a bad life.In those moments, where a “just pray about it,” won’t do for you. Or you’ve talked to God, but it doesn’t seem like enough for you, but you’d much rather not burden anyone how do you cope?What do you guys do when you feel like you’re suffering in silence? What are some ways you get by? Encouraging words? Favorite scriptures/quotes that keep you going in the face of adversity?